My Saga of Love

It was my first day in college!

“Narayanaguru college of Engineering”. A building cluster at the top of the hill. Quite far from Nagercovil city, TamilNadu.

The white letters scribbled in grey board, made me to realise that I had reached the college for my first day. It took nearly 1.5 hours to reach the college from my home. All way around, I was thinking many times, how I

got admission to this college? Do I really deserve this? No, but... But you can’t help yourself. Sometime, we humans are overruled by certain emotions and somehow we may call it as FATE!

My Dream….!!

Masters degree in Mass Communication &; Media Entertainment followed by an entry towards Creative Journalism &; Movie Making! Gone dud..Somewhere it went wrong. Let me call it as FATE, just for my sake!

On my way to college, I again recollected my dreams. One day will come, when this world will recognise me as a reputed film maker. People around me will criticise me for my movie subject.. Long way discussions, debates, craftsmanship and finally the finest movie! Eah..Will make it one da.. I always love to have this, dream!

By the time I reached my college, I had seen this dream 4-5 times.

I went to the corridor. It was raining outside. Hundreds of people were sitting with their relevant certificates at the corridor. I could not find a place to sit anywhere; moreover I was really fed up after seeing such a big crowd.Still,l my dream was haunting m.. I went to the window. The rain was bashing after a gap of 4 months. An autorikshwa had entered the college gate &; stopped at the reception, just a hundred feet in front of me! I stared atrickshaww for no reasons. After few seconds, I could see one umbrella opening from the back seat. It was a beautiful hand. I wish, it would be a girl &; I did not miss it. She looked gorgeous in red churidar, with a wet bottom. She slowly tried opening her umbrella, but hardly she could make it. I saw the uneasiness in her eyes. Somehow, after managing to open the umbrella she stepped down from the rikshshaw. I looked at her beautiful legs &; leather footwear! I can’t stop gazing at her. Suddenly I felt the fragrance of lilies all around my self. It was coming from her. She slowly entered the corridor &; closed her umbrella. I saw few rain drops below her ears eagerly waiting to fall &; I was waiting for ….

Me era... That’s her name. I could easily pay attention when the peon called the names of all the people while categorising the branch. She was also there in Computer Science class room sitting 5 rows in front of me. Oops, I was sitting at the back row. That sounds better!

Those days were beautiful. I got many friends. We started enjoying our college days. But the strong desire for her in my heart always made me to worry at some point of time. Should I open my heart to her? Or should I stay away from her for some more time? Emotions made me to write a story on her. I completed &; named it ‘A Heartbeat for an unknown Love’. I copied this name from a third rate romantic English novel. I scribbled all those moments when I saw her for the first time. I marked my feel for her when I saw her for the first time. But my story became famous among my friends, only because they had never ever seen such a pathetic one! Very soon my heroine became famous among my friends!

Everyone asked, 'Hey tell me who is she?'. But I controlled myself. I eagerly waited for her to ask. But it did not happen even after long six months.

Time went by…

I remember, It was on February 14th, Valentines Day!

My college was completely drowned on that day with the beautiful melodies of love. I saw this eternity everywhere in the campus. I was so embarrassed that I am seeing this festival so beautiful for the first time.

'Hey… What are you looking at?'

My embarrassment reached to hype, when I saw the vendor of that query.

'Hey Me era…. How are you? Why you here? I mean… I mean…. Why you in middle of this crowd who celebrates Valentines Day?!' I asked.

'Why not me, Arun? Why can’t I be here? &; what’s wrong in this celebration?' - I got confused.

'Love is a beautiful piece of saga in the world. Not everyone knows it… Not every one realises it… Those who knows &; realise it… They are lucky enough!! Dude… She must be yours only. Look at her perception about

the most beautiful piece of music in this world.

'Arun, why are you waiting'? – She looked at me confused.

Man, you wont get any more moment suitable than this. Open… Open your mouth &; tell her you love her

lot… somebody was telling to me.

I realised,- 'Yes… Why I need to wait? This might be the right time. Some times you may miss very beautiful things in your life, just because you were not there at the right time &; right place!!'

This is your right time. This is your right place..!!

'Hey Arun, What are you thinking? I doubt, you have someone for this day!!' - She told me with a smile.

'Me era, I would like to tell you something.'

'Hey, Why so formal? Its ok yaa.. Tell me. At least I should know who that lucky chap is?' She was excited.

'Me era…' I whispered!

'Yes Arun, tell me.' She told.

'Me era…' that sounded more audible!

'C’mon Arun, Why you are so shy?Its’ ok... tell me now' She smiled at me.

I could not control myself after seeing that smile.

'Me era…Me eraa, Its you only!! My saga… My saga of love!! I love you so much!' I got a power to express myself !

She did not say anything… She looked at my eyes. I found some feel at her look. But it was a vulnerable emotion, I saw. She started crying. II felt so bad that I could not even take my eyes from her. But I was helpless. I did not say anything, rather waited her to respond.

'You know Arun, I see this world so cruel. If a girl talks to a guy, he thinks that she is in deep love with him.

But I won’t blame you. You are frank! &; I Liked it..

'Hey man, what is this?.. Does she really mean it? - I asked myself!

' Arun, there are not many people in this word who are so much open. You are one among them. But I don’t have any answer to your question. I feel, this has to be decided once if everything comes fine. If my parents

agree this relationship, then I don’t have any concerns. I would suggest you to get a fair good job after 4 years &; come to my home! Everything will be ok by the time. Till the time we are just friends'

'Dude. You have succeeded! Why did you hide this feeling for past few months? You could have told this to her early itself! Anyways, now everything is fine! You have the right thing on your hand. ‘Luck’!

'Me era… I understand what you told. Now I have got one aim in my life! Certainly I will come to your home after getting a fair good job!. I will try for it with my full mind-set … thanksMe eraa… Thanks a loot!'

I felt, I was at top of the world.

Yeah. ! Some iliyaraja music started playing in my mind!! (Varanamayiram ))

I reached my hostel room, took my Engineering Mechanics text &; went to the study room. Room was empty.

Nobody was there except some newspapers &; magazines. I found one place very near to the corner so to get my concentration on Mechanics.

'Its not a game dude. Work hard! Now you have the aim &; attitude! Showcase it, explore &; success will be yours'.

For the first time in my life, I felt the power of self encouragement!

I opened my text. Engineering Mechanics… UNIT 1!!

I did not lose my strength to see me as a succeeding champ!! Even the hard coded formulas in theory of propeller motions became a gentle bizarre for my love…

Weeks went by. !!

'Hey Arun, You started to become the class topper? I saw you for the past two weeks at this place studying.

Good man! Keep going…' It was Albert, my friend.

'Hey nothing yaar. Actually what happened ?

“Arun, there are not many people in this word who are so much open. You are one among them. But I don’t have any answer to your question. I feel, this has to be decided once if everything comes fine. If my parents agree this relationship, then I don’t have any concerns. I would suggest you to get a fair good job after 4 years &; come to my home! Everything will be ok by the time.”.

I floated through her words. !

'Wow!!!! Awesome dude! Congrats. I know Me era is a nice girl. Keep this spirit on…. You will get her for sure!', Albert supported

That added some extra strength to my aim &; attitude.

I felt my dream will come true very soon….

Two months passed….

Now I have to reach the study room so early. It is very rushed nowadays… Many guys are there consuming my favourite place to study.

Keeping this in mind, I went to the study room. I almost covered 2 units from each subjects. I was referring to Thermodynamics on that day.

'Hey Vino, you are so regular in study room now… what happened? Trying to score good marks?', it was again Albert.

Vino is a common friend of mine &; Albert.

'Hey nothing yaar. Actually what happened was...'

“Vino, there are not many people in this word who are so much open. You are one among them. But I don’t have any answer to your question. I feel, this has to be decided once if everything comes fine. If my parents

agree this relationship, then I don’t have any concerns. I would suggest you to get a fair good job after 4 years &; come to my home! Everything will be ok by the time. Till the time we are just friends”…….

Vino floated through her words...

Albert looked at me… He was about to laugh, but he was quite good at controlling his emotions! Where I miserably failed….

I did not say anything... I turned back those pages I have covered for past few days !!

The pages went away from me keeping an echo all over the study room for next 4 years…

'Kishore, There are not many people in this……'

'Praveen, There are not many people in this……'

'Vibin, There are not many people in this…………'

'Sreejith, There are not many people in this…………….

Yeah. Saga of my love begins here…………!!

When the seasons change…

Those flights of steps, seems like cards arranged one after the other appears to be bit blurred in early morning. The steps were laid with autumn leaves fallen, unnoticed…unseen. The faded leaves fallen in those steps brings a feel of childhood memories. Won’t they? Yes, every single leaf has its own memories, which never fade from their life and it’s… Childhood!

A cute little one-year-old kid stepped down on top of the leaf… with an innocent, sweet smile on his face. His little finger was tightly gripped by his dad’s hand. They were walking down the steps sedately, cautiously. His eyes were as excited as he was learning to walk down the steps first time in his life.  As he completes one step down, he slowly looked at his dad’s face curiously, a bit scared…… Yes, he has to make his move next step down, with that fear in his eyes, though he is excited. His dad smiled at him, and tightens the grip on his little finger. He slowly looked down and moved his next step, so cautiously and gently. As soon as he landed down the next step, his eyes filled with innocent joyfulness. It was like ‘I did it’ feel for him. Once again he looked at his dad’s face; his smile was still there... It was the first lesson in kid’s life about love, comfort, confidence, assurance and safety.

They moved each steps forward and walked away...

A gentle breeze with care and love, many more lessons in his life. Taught him how to see the life, how beautiful is it? How to grow up as a human being… how to gain success and many more…

Everything... everything he learnt from his dad and mom.

Those flights of steps, seems like cards arranged one after the other. The faded leaves fallen in those steps brings a feel of memories, but those were… painful!

They were walking down the steps… dad’s hand is tightly gripped with a solid and stiffen walking stick in place of those cute little fingers. He was trying to walk down the steps with that tough walking stick. But it was not easy as he walked long years ago.

As he was slowly steeping each step down, his son went far ahead from him. He was walking away where his dad was trying hard to put his next step down.

They shall grow not old, an adorable relief with care… hold their hands together, take them for a walk…show them forgiving flowers, feel them lenient love, make them listen to melodious music,  whisper their ears, Thank you for my life…. I care for you and will be with you forever in your life!

‘Old age Homes’ The palace of kindness... But say, Never Ever!

“I'm eighty-three and homeless. It was the same when World War II ended. The Army kept me on because I could type, so I was typing other people's discharges and stuff. And my feeling was “Please, I've done everything I was supposed to do. Can I go home now?” That what I feel right now. I've written books. Lots of them. Please, I've done everything I'm supposed to do. Can I go home now? I've wondered where home is. It's when I was in Indianapolis when I was nine years old. Had a dog, a cat, a brother, a sister.”

KURT VONNEGUT, JR., Rolling Stone, Aug. 24, 2006